Self-Portrait 2018

I’m both cynical & skeptical
often hard to please
timid to a fault
& set in my ways
I don’t cook
I don’t clean
& I don’t care anymore
Seemingly unable to right the wrongs
don’t feel much like I belong
So tired of struggling with life

Malicious thoughts circling the drain
counting down from zero to oblivion
unskilled in the ways of the world as I view it
scavenging for footholds
on a righteous path to glory
Feeling contentious & incomplete
with the sting of defeat
I’m wracking my brain for results
to cancel out nagging doubt
preying on my humanity

Hold me tight my Darling
to be warmed by your loving touch
Without you my existence would hold scant meaning
At this fork in the road
which way do we best go on this unfamiliar terrain
Planning demands an abundance of time
& god only knows what the future holds
impractical dreamer that I am
exploring the perilous depths of my soul

Author: Emma Beane

"My history is still one of those mysteries I struggle with every day..." - [ebeane] ... All original works Copyright Emma Beane

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