Setback

Stumbled into a hornets nest of disapproval,
heightening my expression of ominous rage,
internalizing my pain again & again,
raising objections in my incurably diseased brain,
testing my patience with difficult questions,
my temperature rising to high intensity, and
me growing more disagreeable moment by moment

Schizoid Androgynous Exchange

You & your toxic logic
are bundled for disposal
at my most opportune mention
ripening to the peak of perfection
as I hone my thoughts of aggression
and fine-tune my hateful expressions
while sifting through bad memories of you
and the decades of crude & abusive behaviors
[oh, what a big man you are]
meaning to be my undoing then as now

But make no mistake, mister
now it’s you, my intended victim
[me dressed in battle fatigue]
wielding weapons of proven psychological method